Sin Issue: A Heart Issue

Sin is not a surface issue, but a heart issue. That's why in Romans 6 it says that no longer are we SLAVES to sin, because our hearts are captured, captivated, and overwhelmed with His love, mercy, grace, and glory. When we came into a renewed relationship with our Father, He has given us a NEW heart! So, when we catch ourselves faced with

a sin issue in our lives, we must go to our main Resource and ask our Father to reveal to our hearts, the root of the issue, what are we believing? And face and deal with the issue as is, and we must not try to cover it up, or run away with it, but come to the Father and share with Him what's in our heart, and seek His face,   forgiveness, asking for a spirit of revelation and a heart of repentance. This is RELATIONSHIP! and a warfare is over our hearts, spirits, thoughts, our souls. Because sin and death were defeated at the cross, the warfare battle has only intensified. That's why we ask and seek for His hands pour HIS Heart, HIS LOVE over us, because His Love alone pours and melts away ALL  fear, lies we may be believing, melt away all hurt we may be holding on to, allowing the hurt to linger and causing bitterness, unforgiveness, which all unforgiveness will lead into unforgiveness of self which is STILL sin. 

My Story

When God first gave me the revelation that all sin issue was the reflection of an heart issue, it blessed my life. In my season of singleness (I am still currently in the singleness season), I knew who He had for me was a great man of God, and wait on Him and His timing, and so on. Well, I couldn't understand why in the maturity of my season I had these thoughts about these guys, going back into my childish ways wondering if they liked me, if they were the one, and so on. To the point in the mornings when I got dressed, God would play Lecrae's song "Praying for You" in my head with the verse that says, "can't go to the mall, because every girl is half dressed, tempting him to lust and fall". Now, I was still dressing modesty, but was my heart dressed in modesty? I was dressing with the thought behind my mind wanting to get noticed, or attention of some form. Even just a glance. If he's not the husband for me, why am I trying to impress some other woman's husband?! And, WHY AM I EVEN CARING WHAT OTHERS THINK I LOOK LIKE? This was sooo high school for me! Once one guy was confirmed that he wasn't who God had for me, on to the next guy. High school ways. I was so over and beyond that in my season. Why have I reverted back more than one step? These guys weren't even attractive or cute in spirit, or physical, not even intellect! Lol. I knew something was wrong. Well, during my lunch break at work, I prayed and sought after God about my heart, because I wasn't focused. I was distracted. That's when He revealed to me that it was something wrong with my heart. Not only was I being impatient for the husband He had for me, but deep down I was hurt, broken from those that were close to me. Lies being spoken against me, drama at my job. Everyone wanted me to pray for them, or give them a word from the Lord like a psychic machine, but no one was there when I needed prayer, or someone to seek the Lord on my behalf in those weak moments I couldn't. I felt that I needed a companion here on earth (my husband) to share things with. Maybe someone will finally listen and understand me, even love me the way I desire to be loved, and help me see some things about myself. The fears of may be I'm delaying the husband process started to kick in. I felt like I had to "work" to advance in the Kingdom of God, when all along, God kept trying to remind me that in Him, I am already loved, and just being His child is enough and to rest. So as I went to God, He revealed ALL these hurt, and fears that led to worry, and even more brokenness, and self hate that caused me to go in circle of this sin issue in my heart. He led me to pray for not only His forgiveness, because He already had, but I needed to forgive myself. I needed to see what He sees all along. I needed a repentant heart. An obedient spirit. I needed Him to strengthen and encourage my faith, healing my heart, and live through a healed heart and not so much the broken heart that was there.

A Vision: New Heart From Heaven

He then gave me a vision at work. (Amazingly enough, our calls stopped coming in for a short period of time for me to receive and meditate on this vision. His hands were on those calls! lol) I saw myself in heaven, Jesus smiling trying to give Him this broken shattered heart. I was trying so hard to love Him. They were mended together, but you can see where He mended them with the light shinning through the cracks. But it was still too hard. Still smiling, He said, why settle for a mended heart when I can give you a NEW heart to Love Me with. And from His back He pulled out this heart in excitement. I remember seeing butterflies sprout. And His smile got bigger, and even laughed with me. And I felt such joy and peace, i felt NEW! As this vision was going on, I literally felt my heart jump in my chest two times at the same exact Time it was given. As I was coming to, tears literally drenched my face, I felt new, loved, cherished, and healed once again! God gave me a NEW heart to LOVE Him with! And I thank God every day for this!

My Encouragement// Challenge to YOU!

I want to encourage you today! If you notice a repetitive sin issue in your life, I want you to take that to God, spend some time alone with Him. Just you and Jesus. Don't only open up to Jesus and be real with Him, but be ready to be real with yourself. It's going to get deep. If you really want freedom from what's entangling inside of you, if you really want that peace, and LOVE God in that place of your heart again, this is your moment. God is ALWAYS ready to hear from His children. He's ready to undo us from the knots this life can bring. He's ready to untie you from any fear, worry, sin, anxiety, hurt. He's ready! Now, during your time with Lord, I want you to grab a journal (or paper) and pen, and record what the Lord is/has done for you in this moment. Write what He has shared with you. Write about your encounters and how you felt afterwards. Did you feel lifted? Do you feel free? Do you feel you're able to love God again with that area of your heart? Write it down! What did He speak or reveal to you? What understanding did you receive? Write those down. *Extra: Write a letter to God expressing your heart (don't worry about grammar or mistakes, just let the pen flow) As you write be open for the Lord to flow through you. Don't doubt, if a God thought comes through and you think He's speaking, let it flow! Because, He may just be speaking to you. 

When you're done writing, keep it in your journal, or your favorite passage in the Bible, where you can see it everyday.

Just remember in 1 John 1:9 says that He remembers our sins no more. We need to forgive ourselves and cast it into the sea of forgetfulness as just like our Father does. Stop torturing ourselves and walk in love. Including loving ourselves. That means forgiveness. If He can forgive us, we can forgive ourselves. A friend once told me that your past can be 5 minutes ago. If God has forgive your past, let the past stay behind you. You are not your past, you are who you are in God. His Beloved! Jeremiah 29:11 says how He thinks good thoughts toward us. Thoughts of love and peace. He also tell us in His Word that everyday is a new day! New Mercies and New Grace! Walk in this truth for your life today!

Below is a video by Bethel Music! Let this song minister to your heart tonight as you spend time in His Presence!

I Love you, but God loves you more!

Blessings,
-Jenny!

*I do not own the rights of this video, lyrics, melody, or song.